I'm growing up || Serious talking here

This cute baby has nothing to do with this entry,or,maybe it did..

Got a phone interview for my practical yesterday. Seriously can't believe that I'm going to work soon. For all my life I never been in a real working environment. Honestly, I'm pretty nervous this time.

What I'm going to wear? I don't even have formal outfit except my baju kurung. I just have slippers and sneakers for my feet, jeans and tshirt.

What should I do?

Could I make it through those 10 weeks of practical period with an absolutely new environment and new people?

Do I able to apply everything that I've learn through the years?

Will I complete the task given perfectly?

Am I the only one who experience this feeling?

It is normal right?

fffuuuuhhhhhhhh....

Kind of 'gelabah'....haha

Keep it cool babe!

You'll never know your performance until you try.

...and what the hell with the title??

.......whatever.......

One of the crazy nights

My favourite, my interest, my hobby...doing crazy unplanned things. If less than month ago I travel to Seremban alone, waiting for someone for 5 hours, missed my friend's flight which is the main point I was there, an overnight with someone i met for the first time at the place I never went (luckily there's nothing happen to me)...this time I'm not do it alone..

Actually I'm supposed in my final exam mode.But, since I only got 3 papers and the gap between them is quite long,so,..there we go..last Monday after finishing my 1st paper I ask my friends out.

Objective: to buy my new toy.

First we (4 of us) went to Angsana. FOTO BERLIAN one stop camera shop (besides the McDonald).The price quite low there compare to other shops I went before, plus the sellers are friendly and giving good services.Right before we enter the shopping complex we saw a fun fair open near there.So after we achieve our objective, we rush to the fun fair full with excitement.They rode the 'Top Guns' while I snapped their picture.Of course I was not riding that thing with them (you know why)..

We stop playing when our stomach singing..Owh, we haven't had dinner yet.No wonder.Looking for a place to eat, we straight to Stulang.Wah3..order set for 4 and still asking about adding the rice and keep saying "ini je??"..but then everybody full,who's left to finished the foods?You guess..haha..After eating, each of us start asking,what's next?but none of us thinking of going back to utm even it's already pat 1 in the morning.Went to Petronas for Isya' then a crazy idea come out..

Drove to Desaru at almost 3am and reach there around 5am.Sleepy journey I told you.Credit to our driver for being so tough..ahaha..At first we didn't found the beach while all the gates to chalet was closed until we detect one with gate off.We sneak in and straight to the beach, have fun, took dozens of pictures till dawn.We get caught when we went to 'surau' for Subuh.To avoid any unwanted scene so we drove back our car but not to utm of course.We looked for other entrance and we found one.Took a plenty of pictures, sunrise, jumping, beach, etc...we headed back to utm after 7am and reached after 9am.I slept on the way back.Too sleepy to be awake.

What a great night I had.Thanks to my friends..Here's one of my picture taken by my friend with the beautiful sunrise as the background.Some more pictures,click here..

Tak boleh ke setakat kawan je?

Start dengan perkenalan di alam maya, Shima dan Khairul sering berhubung.Kalau mula2 diorang just ber'ym' tp bile dah rapat sket, phone number pun masing2 dah dpt, ape barang ym2.Mesej-mesejan n berkoling-kolingan la pulak.Alkisahnye diorang ni langsung tak pernah jumpe.Almost 2 years diorang kawan, ade la exchange dalam 2 keping gamba masing2.Tapi orang kate kalau betol2 dah ikhlas nak kawan, muke pecah tembok pun sape nak heran kan.

Shima suke kawan ngan Khairul.At least die ade someone yang selalu layan die mengarut and dengar story die without judging.Ditakdirkan satu hari Shima kene attend class reunion dekat KL.Memandangkan Shima tinggal kat Pahang and memang jarang sekali la datang KL, maka diorang pun decide utk see each other.Khairul memang orang KL.Tipu kalo diorang xberdebar.Ye la memang la dah lame kawan.Tapi masing2 xtau mcm mane penerimaan masing2 terhadap diri masing2.'Blind date' diorang smooth je sebab due2 pandai sesuaikan diri.

Lepas tu diorang kawan macam biasa and boleh kate lagi baek kot.Sampailah satu hari yang xdisangka2 Khairul propose Shima to be his special one.Shima serba salah.Die suke Khairul, sayang Khairul,tapi die sayang friendship diorang jugak.Die xpenah terfikir pun nak end up in a serious relationship dengan kawan baiknya tu.Maka dengan penuh bersopan santun n berhati-hati Shima tolak.Die tau Khairul kecewa tapi die nak diorang just friends,like best friend may be.

Khairul nampaknye bley accept penolakan tu and diorang go on with their friendship.Malangnya dari hari ke hari Khairul macam mula menjauhkan diri.Bile call selalu je mengelak.Conversation

diorang pun xsemeriah dulu,hambar je.Kalau dulu diorang mesej pagi,petang,siang,malam.

Tp skrg..sehari sekali..berkurang ke 3 hari sekali..kurang lg once a week..kadang2..and at last Khairul menyepi mcm tu je..Shima mesej langsung xberbalas,call xberangkat and final stage.."The number you have dial is not in service"..diorang lost contact tros.Shima sangat terkilan.Langsung xde berite dr Khairul.Ntah sihat ke x,hidup lg ke die?Kalau die tau macam ni jadinye baek die terime je Khairul dulu even die xrela.Cinta boleh dipupuk,kate orang.Skrg die betol2 rindukan sahabatnye tu.Rase sunyi bile orang yang selalu jadi peneman menghilang.Die jadi takut utk rapat dengan mane2 laki lagi, tak mahu sejarah berulang,hatinya sakit.

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Nape lelaki selalu mcm tu ek?Memang motif korang berkawan dengan pompuan nak angkat die jd girlfriend or wife ke?Bile kene tolak korang tinggal je.Blah je la,kalo tunggu kawan lg pun bukannye dapat hasil.Macam tu ke?Kalo stakat korang maen 7days rules korang tu,tade hal la.Tapi yang ni aku tataw la rules ape plak yang korang pakai.Ntah la.Aku bukan lelaki,mane la aku tau ape yang korang fikir or ape yang korang rase.Even aku try to put myself in your shoes, kaki korang besar.Mane fit ngan kaki aku.Salah ke, tak boleh ke kalo setakat kawan je?

Tanda-tanda Tibanya Ajal

Sekarang ni negara gempar dengan pemergian arwah Din Beramboi..Innalillah..semoga roh beliau ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yang beriman..takziah buat keluarge beliau..Aku ade terbace pasal post die kat twitter.Maybe die tau da smpe mase.Wallahua'lam......

Sini aku nak kongsi serba sikit pasal tanda2 ajal or kematian.Semua orang akan alami tande2 ni tapi just orang2 yang dikehendaki-Nya je yang akan perasan n sedar.

100 hari sebelum mati

- selepas waktu Asar seluruh tubuh akan mengalami getaran seakan-akan menggigil.

40 hari sebelum mati

- selepas Asar bahagian pusat akan berdenyut2

7 hari sebelum mati

- orang yang sakit xmakan tibe2 selera nak makan

3 hari sebelum mati

- akan terase denyutan kat bahagian tengah2 dahi.Kalo sedar akan tanda ni make elok la puase supaye memudahkan orang nak mandikan kite nanti.

- mata hitam tak lagi bersinar

-hidung n telinge perlahan-lahan jatuh

- tapak kaki yang terlunjur perlahan-lahan jatuh kedepan n sukar ditegakkan.

1 hari sebelum

- selepas Asar akan terase denyutan pada ubun2 menandakan tak sempat menemui Asar keesokannya

Tanda akhir

-terase sejuk pada pusat, turun ke pinggang kemudian naik ke halkum.Ucapkanlah kalimah syahadah dan berdiam diri menunggu ajal.

Tanda2 kat atas ni kadang2 may be orang tu sendiri tak perasan tapi orang lain perasan.Tapi kadang2 kalo orang lain perasan pon ape boley buat...

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Arwah pak ngah aku meninggal time aku skolah rendah.Xingat dah darjah berape time tu.Tapi beberape hari b4 tu memang arwah banyak mendiamkan diri je. tak pernah2 die sambut birthday die tibe2 taun tu die sambut plak siap beli kek.birthday die 1 week b4 die meninggal. n pagi tu tibe2 je die datang umah aku semate2 nak btaw ayah aku hari tu cuti.xyah g keje.padehal boley je tepon btaw.kitorang breakfast same2 then die start moto die balek.ayah aku plak anta aku ngan Along g xtra class.Balek dr klas parents aku dah xde kat umah.Opah kate pakngah meninggal.xciden pas balek dr umah aku pg td.Along nangis.Aku blur2..tekejut sebab baru pg tu jumpe, borak2.Die pesan suruh blaja rajin2,jgn nakal2..tibe2 dpt berite camtu plak...

Time arwah Along meninggal aku lg 1 week nak SPM.Last aku jumpe arwah time cuti b4 mjlis graduation aku kt mrsm.Die tak banyak cakap n 1st time aku balek cuti kitorg xgadoh.Aku grad die xdtg coz die xmnt event formal.Yang selebihnye aku dah story dlm post b4 ni..

Lebih kurang 1month after that tokwan plak meninggal.Aku sian kat ayah aku.Xsempat nak hilang sedih anak pergi ayah plak menyusul.Tapi time tu aku tgh forecast.Xdapat balek.mampu dengar mak nangis kat hujung talian je.2 pon sehari lepas tokwan meninggal, da selamat kebumi n buat tahlil baru mak call btaw.Terkilan sgt.B4 tu tiap kali aku call parents mst tnye psl arwah.Die mmg da lame sakit n penah operation pon.Mak btaw ayah dukung tokwan g hospital sbb xlarat jln aku da risau.Tapi 3-4 hari b4 arwah pergi aku kol mak kate arwah dah makin sihat.Dah kuat bangun bejalan,dah boleh sembang2 gelak2 n da beselera nak makan.Aku lega sket dgr.Tapi tup2 da selamat kebumikan dah..

Arwah opah selalu mengadu sakit perut.Bile pegi klinik doktor kate angin.Mase kenduri kawen makcu, aku xbalek tp mak kate opah xlarat nk wat pape.Kaki die bengkak susa nak jln.Bile kaki opah surut dah jadi kecik sebelah plak.Aku balek cuti sian plak tgk die susah gile nak jln.Opah xsuke g hospital so berubat kampung je.Tok pon slalu gak ngadu sakit n die mmg slalu sakit since ak skola rendah ag smpe msk hospital segale.So everytime ak kol parents mst ak tnye psl diorg.B4 balek raye haji mak btaw opah kene kanser perut,dah lame.Yang slame ni doktor kate angin je tu rupenye kanser.Sian opah.Balek umah raye haji, opah beraye atas katil je.Perut opah kembung mcm org pregnant gara2 kanser tu.Opah cakap pon macam susah da.Macam lidah da keras.Dengan cousin lari dr rumah ag, anak2 plak ramai xdpt cuti nk balek beraye..Sangat pilu..Opah kate die berubat ngan sorang bomoh ni n da kurang sket sakitnye.Aku balek UTM semule aku tros search sbb aku penah dgr org kate kalo orang da hmpir ajalnye lidah die makin keras utk berkate2 n aku sgt sedih dgn hasilnye.Bukan aku nk opah cepat pegi ke hape tapi ak rase mase die da dekat.Xlame lepas tu mak btaw opah masuk Hospital Ipoh(HI).Aku ngeri la dgr name HI nih.Lagi stu berite tekejut rase nak marah doktor detect actually opah sakit barah ati yang kronik.Perot die kembung bcoz of kuman dah mule menjalar.HOI DOKTOR!!!!!!dah tahap kritikal camtu baru boley detect ke?Dulu asyik kate angin je..korang blaja ape hah kat u dulu??yg dukun tu pown sape wariskan kt ko ilmu kate mnde 2 barah perot huh??ggrrrr...start pade tula hari2 aku kol tanye berite sampe la satu hari mak tepon tanye.."Tadi pahlong(kakak opah) lawat pah.tgk pah sembang elok je.pahlong pesan jgn tggl opah sorg2.hidung ngan telinga pah jatuh.ngape tu ye?xphm le mak"..gulp..tediam aku jap.ape aku nak ckp kat mak ni.tanak mak sedih.Last2 aku pesan suh mak banyak2 doa, zikir n ajak la opah banyak2 igt Allah.Tataw la mak phm ke x ape yg aku try smpaikan.Aku tataw nak ckp camne, tu je la aku mampu.Xkan nak ckp,"mak,setau org tu tandenye lg 2-3 hari nak ajal",..2 hari lpas tu ak call mak die btaw diorg baru balek jmput opah dr hospital.Opah nak balek tanak dok hospital.Doktor benarkan je sbb diorg da tabley wat pape.N dlm kol 3-4 pg mak call n aku da dpt agk ape die nk ckp.ngan suare sebak die btaw opah meninggal lbey krg kol 3 tadi.Kalo aku bley balek, balek la.kalo tabley xpe.Aku rase aku da redi utk brite ni tapi aku still nanges.aku tetap nk balek even ak taw ak xkan smpt tgk jenazah opah sbb ak nak ade kt sane bg smgt kat mak.So smpe pg ak tabley tdo then bgn pg tros g amek bus kol 10.30am n smpe sane lepas maghrib time org nak tahlil.Tersayat ati jap tgk tok temenung sorg2."Aku yang slalu sakit die yg pegi dulu"..Ajal maut xkire sape sakit dulu tok...

Aku cite ni sume bukan nak jaje kisah sedih or nak beli air mate korang.Just nak share yang sebenarnye tanda2 ajal tu kdg2 jelas kat depan mate.Samada kite sedar atau x je n kalo kite sedar ade x kita amek tindakan or wat ape yang sewajarnye..muhasabah diri jap...